ryan_breathes

goodbye, i shall be making a blog
you all complain too much

i do not belong here.

and into a house with 5 of my best friends
i'm excited, and scared.
but this will be good.

I've been up for days,
Trying to find a way to write this confession down
Seems every line I writes amiss,
At least this I'll admit
For what I've done, I am not proud
But there's no need to pretend, no need for innocence
I've got to be honest now

My verdict has come in,
It says I'm guilty for my sins this time.
I thought I could escape,
But then I finally felt the weight,
Of my crimes.
This is passion, it's not love,
Infatuation never ends up right.
At least I won't be alone tonight.
'Cuz I don't want to be alone tonight.

The prosecution rests,
With convincing evidence.
It seems I've been deceived.
So now I stand alone and wait for the first stone,
To be cast upon me.

My verdict has come in,
It says I'm guilty for my sins this time.
I thought I could escape,
But then I finally felt the weight of my crimes.
This is passion, it's not love,
Infatuation never ends up right.
At least I won't be alone tonight.
'Cuz I don't want to be alone tonight.
If convicted, I will surely do my time.

At least I won't be alone tonight.
'Cuz I don't want to be alone tonight.

i must have stumbled in.

i don't know what to do.

I stand here, broken and battered
A man who has much to lose
As the waves of this eternal sea
Come crashing down upon me

I have so much left to do
So much more to give
This life of mine is worth more
More than all these riches

The tide rolls in towards me
Bracing myself for the impact ahead
I look towards the sky and pray
I await my salvation

This is not my last voyage
I’ll make it home again
Make the most of your life
You only have one to live

let my mind wander. i have a lot to think about.

i hate when life gets complicated.

move up to 00s (stopping after that)
get my tattoos sketched out
make an appointment for first tattoo
get a higher paying job
pay off the debt owed to my parents
get my tragus pierced, maybe?
get somewhere with this new music endeavor
write more for my solo project
move out of the house by summer
save up for a new bass head

if only i could afford such a thing...

how do you really explain this feeling?
i thought i've felt it so many times before
but this time is different, this will last
it's the kind of thing of thing you read about
it's the kind of thing that gives you butterflies
i'm doing things the right way
and taking things slow, the way they should be
but i know i'm falling for her
and i know she's doing the same
i'm afraid to give my heart away again
for the fear of it being ripped to shreds again
but i know i can trust her with it
because i know she'll trust me with hers
it's just a matter of time
i hope this time my dreams come true

i wasn't so damn paranoid about every little thing.
the next time i open my heart up completely, it isn't broken.
this relationship will last for a really long time.
i would start going back to Mass...or at least some sort of church service.
i can go and get my stuff back from her as soon as possible.
my band will get somewhere soon, because we have the potential.
i would get a better paying job so i can finally move out.
i'll be able to see some of my friends soon...the one's i haven't seen in quite some time.
i would get to bed earlier and think of things to add to this later.

what your life would sound like if put to music?

this is where i want to be
this is how i wanted my life to be
that is why i am happy

if only for a second, but i could still say
i changed someone's life for the better
i want to tour the country and meet
people from all walks of life
and share my stories and aspirations
with them, and hopefully learn
some valuable life lessons
i want to bring joy to people
who will listen to my message

there's something about this girl
and the way that she makes me feel
i tend to fall in and out of love
so quickly, but this time i'm doing things right
i want this to last because the feeling she gives me
well, i've never experienced it before
this is different, this is real
i'm taking my time because i've never
like someone this much before or
had so much in common with one person
it makes me blush every time i talk about her
and smile every time i think about her

but i was completely WRONG
i have nothing left to say to you
for what it's worth, i hate you

i know my posts are vague.
sorry, i'm not in the mood to
type this all out.

i've never been more depressed than this, but at the same time i've never been more angry.
i've been letting the anger take control, though.